Try, try, and try again

Epic fail. Today’s total calorie count so far: 1,080. I was gonna try for at least 2,000. If I have more Carnation Instant Breakfast and a chocolate covered granola bar (the generic brand, because it has 220 calories… I like the taste of the Quaker better, but they’re only 140), I can ALMOST reach my goal at 1,580. But almost doesn’t count.

I had considered a burrito with cheese and ranch dressing. But I think that’s much too “heavy” (and spicy) to have at 9pm. I will plan that for lunch tomorrow, though. It’s a good 700-ish calories if I drink more Carnation junk with it. What I really should do is dip into savings and buy a week’s worth of Ensure Plus or Boost Plus, and have at a couple of those every day. My doctor actually wants me to have 3 a day until I get up to 90 lbs, buuuut they’re $100 a month, and insurance doesn’t pay for it (even when my doctor wrote a prescription) because I don’t NEED it to survive. Well, I don’t NEED Vicodin and Naproxen to survive, and they pay for that! Bleh. I don’t want to spend that on just drinks, even if it is only for a couple months.

 Anyhoo, off to bed. Tomorrow is a day off from helping Gabi, so I can get some extra rest (got so tuckered out today about 3pm I had to take a nap in her spare bedroom). Work a little bit on getting the apartment cleaned and ready for the carpet steamers on Friday. But mostly rest… and eat!

Going up makes me go down!

So…apparently my body doesn’t like high elevation. Less oxygen (forgot my oxygen tank this time!), makes my heart work harder and use more energy…lots of energy!

Weighed myself yesterday morning, and was 74.8! I’m usually about 80-82! So yesterday I tried to really stick to my diet and eat every couple of hours. This morning’s weight is 75.4 which is barely over half a pound.

Today I’m going to try to stick to the diet again. It’s only 9:45 and I’ve already eaten twice. Of course, they weren’t big meals or even very healthy…but at least I got calories in me! Twix candy bars (150 cals) at 8:30 and now I’m trying to gag down some Carnation Instant Breakfast made with whole milk (280). It’s not that I don’t like it, usually…but silly me, I brushed my teeth an hour ago, and now it tastes weird! Plus, even though I slept decent last night, now I’m already tired, and I don’t like eating when I’m tired… well, don’t like doing ANYthing when I’m tired.

Gotta scoop my 2 litter boxes, then off to work to do Gabi’s grocery shopping and scoop her 25 litter boxes! Maybe I can get home early and go to bed early…maybe…hopefully…